What's the point (s)

There's no one right way to do this
but there are so many ways
lo-carb
no-carb
all-carb
no-fat
low-fat
pure-fat
all-fruit
no-fruit
vegetarian
vegan
macrobiotic
aromatherapy
triggerpoint therapy
yoga therapy
color therapy
shock therapy
hypnosis
acupuncture
self love
tough love
body love
love somebody
points
calories
grams
fiber
protein
carbs
minerals
vitamins
supplements
herbs

so many and no one

when I ingest gluten, I have an (almost) immediate reaction
so gluten is out
that's the first basic parameter and a non-negotiable
so today I thought I'd just "see" what the points are for one of many possible gluten free breakfast options.
9 points
for breakfast
i didnt need the creamer so it could've been 7
but 3/4 cup of gluten free granola cereal (which is phenomenal by the way)
and 1/2 cup of hemp milk
with a small banana
seemed to look small

but now that i'm thinking about it
i'm quite satisfied (must've been all the good stuff like sunflower seeds, almonds and flax in the cereal)

so seeing isn't everything
seeing isn't believing

i think this must work in the mirror as well
i mean, i think it must (has to) work in the mirror
My problem exists in my perception of my image (in comparison to other images that have burned into my brain through the years)
I have never liked my image
Oh I may have liked how I looked one day or another or in a certain outfit
but there has always been something i haven't liked.

I have jeans waiting for me in my drawer
and i distinctly remember saying "i look fat in these don't i" one day while wearing them...and now wearing them is a goal

so it's an image perception problem
I need to like what I see no matter what I see because no matter what I've seen I haven't liked it

but how do i go about doing that
fake it til i make it
tell myself again and again that i love my thighs
i love my thighs
i love my thighs
i love my thighs
i love my thighs
i love my thighs
i love my thighs
i love my thighs
i love my thighs
i love my thighs
i love my thighs

so that is now partially embedded in my finger muscle memory since i didn't even cut and paste...i typed each line

so today
i love my thighs
my thighs are strong
my thighs are full and curvy
my thighs add to my voluptuous, sensuous shape
i love my thighs

(it's getting easier to type i love my thighs without a type-o...maybe this muscle memory thing will work)


and, still in confession mode
I ate too many lindor truffles yesterday
very determinedly gave the rest of the bag to the kids and they gobbled them up
confession is the first step in forgiveness
forgiveness leads to redemption
Redeem: To restore the honor, worth, or reputation of
to restore the honor and worth of myself
the honor and worth of my body
to understand that I am worthy
because I eat when I think that I am not or don't deserve to be

I love my thighs
I love my thighs
I love my thighs