no wonder i'm so tired

I believe I've caused my own pain and fatigue.

My body has been in a struggle with itself for so long

My vessel finally decided to just sit down and wait it out

My body got tired of listening to my selves disagree and argue with one another

sabotage one another, ignore one another

My body is tired of struggling with itself

My body is achy from fighting with itself

My body is tired

so it's just gonna sit and wait for the tug of war to stop

you know...if you want something to disappear, you have to pay attention to it

i want my inner critic to disappear

i wish it would just shut up

i wish i could just smother that voice

and i've tried...under food

what i've learned is that i need to pay attention to that little voice

she's not trying to be a critic

she's trying to tell me something

when she acts out, there's a reason

and not just any old reason...but a positive, good, self-caring reason

so i've been spending time trying to shut her up

and she's been spending time trying to get me to listen

my GOD no wonder i'm so TIRED